I saw this cute idea from another blog. They did a list of things they liked about themselves or things about themselves that are positive or things in their lives that are positive by using the alphabet...let's see just how hard this is. Talking about myself isn't something I'm good at. I hate to admit it, but I have low...low self esteem. :( Mike always tells me that he loves me and would never change anything about me...except the way I think about myself. I want to beleive him when he tells me how amazing I am and how gorgeous I am...but for some reason I just don't see it. I think I'm a nice person...that counts right? :)
A - I like to consider myself "Artsie". I'm no professional by any means but I think I do ok. I write poems, draw, make crafts, and style hair for weddings and dances. I have poems that date all the way back to when I was 8 years old. I even got one published back in 2003. I LOVE making crafts so much. That is usually what you get from me when you have a baby or get married...a homemade gift. Again, I'm no professional, but I love doing it so much. Doing hair has always been my "out". I cannot tell you how I feel when I see the face of the person getting her hair done when she looks in the mirror. To make someone feel so special and pretty by 1 hour of curling and spraying...is priceless.
B - I actually like my "Brunette" hair. Mike always tells me how he wishes I loved how I look more. He thinks that I am the most beautiful girl ever...and I have a hard time accepting that I could be in the beautiful catagory. One day he asked me "is there anything about yourself you think is pretty?" Of course my instant response was "NO!" Then he gave me that look...so I started to think. I looked in the mirror and happened to be having a "good" hair day. I said to him "my hair is pretty." He was in shock that I had said anything positive about my appearance. It really got me thinking about my hair. My hair isn't super healthy, nor is it as thick as it used to be before I had kids, but I actually like it. One of the nurses at my work in the surgical recovery room told me that I should start a blog JUST about my hair. I do it different every day and she said it always looks amazing. She is sweet.
C - Mike and I are talking about getting a smaller bed because I'm so "Cuddly". We have a Queen size bed and probably use 1/4 of it. When we sleep...we practically are 1 person. Thankfully he is cuddly too so we don't have a problem. :) But the thing is, I'm not just cuddly with him. I LOVE to cuddle with my friends. I love sitting on the couch under a blanket with my girls and watching a movie. I love hugging and always being next to someone. My kids are taking that on...they are also very cuddly and I love it! McHailee will always say "if I get ready for bed REALLY fast, can we cuddle for just 5 minutes before I have to go to bed?" I love her.
D - I love to Dance! My grandma always wanted to put me in dance since I was 4 but we couldn't afford it. She wanted me to be a ballerina more then anything. I started dancing in High School...but that was short lived. About 3 years ago, my friend Julie introduced me to a dance company called Dance Biz. She was just taking an adult hip hop class and told me to come try it out. I fell in LOVE with it. The owner, the teachers, the dancers...I love them all!
E - Entertaining guests is something I thrive on. I love to have parties! Baby showers, bridal showers, bday party's, or just get togethers. I love having all the people I love around me and having a good time with fun and food. Mike got me a chocolate fountain about 3 years ago for Mothers Day and I have more then gotten my moneys worth out of it. I pull that thing out every chance I get and everyone loves it.
F - People always tell me I'm Friendly. I have even had more then 1 person get mad at me for being TOO friendly. I am the Pharmacy Tech Student Supervisor at my work. My last student and I were walking around the hospital and I was saying hi to everyone we passed. Asking those who didn't work here if they needed help or anything. I knew everyone's name that passed (that work here) and he finally said "Wow...you are really friendly to people! I mean, you know everyone's name and if you don't you are helping them!" I just shrugged my shoulders cause it's just what I do. Then he jokingly said "What's wrong with you!?" lol. It feels so good to know just a hello to someone can make their day. Especially in a hospital. I work in the pharmacy and don't have much to do with the actual patients...but that doesn't mean I get to ignore them. I have seen many that work here just walk past patients in need. Even if they don't look like they need help I still check. How many times out of 10 do people actually claim they "need" help. I know I never say I need help when I could actually probably use some. I have helped people out of their cars, walk them to their cars, grab wheelchairs for people who look like they can't walk down the long hallway, stayed with patients just so they have company, etc. Being friendly means more to people then you know...until you do it. :)
G - If you are close to me, then you know that I am Gushy. Yes...gushy. I am always letting people know I love them and care for them. Maybe even too much sometimes. I will text my close friends at random times that I miss them or love them or that they are wonderful and beautiful. I'm even worse with Mike. I will curl up in his lap and gaze at him and just announce my love for him...daily! I know that if something were to ever happen to me, my friends will not wonder if I thought about them or loved them. They always know.
H - I have always been told I'm a "Hat" person. Apparently there are some who can wear hats and some who can't. I think everyone looks cute in hats! I have about 10 different hats and lately I get a new one every few months. I need to wear them more often though, I don't wear them as much as I would like to. Thanks to all those who have ever complimented me in my hats!
I - Ink! Yes I have "ink". I was 20 years old and had it was just me and my little man Remington. I was pretty much at the end of my rope at this time...slowly pulling myself and my son out of it....slowly. If it weren't for Remington, I don't really know what would have become of me. I love him so much. I decided to get his name on me for forever! I know there are tons of people who regret their tattoos but I will never regret mine. I do wish I had done different colors though. I love you Remington...you will always be my monkey!
J - I love my Job. In June I will have been here for 4 years. I admit, I have had my ups and downs working here, but I will take the few downs for all the amazing ups! On top of my job in the pharmacy, I am the President of the hospitals "Employee Engagement Committee". I help organize parties, functions, health fairs, charity work, and help better the hospital by solving problems that our employees see. I love it so much. In April, I organized a way to make Easter baskets for the homeless kids at the Road Home in Salt Lake. Our entire hospital donated enough to take the kids 47 baskets filled to the brims, 2 HUGE boxes of toys, stuffed animals, coloring books, reading books, etc., 2 HUGE boxes of extra candy, $45 in cash, and $114.00 in Wal Mart gift cards. Everyone here was so giving and generous. I wish I could have seen the kids faces. I feels so good to be able to be a part of that thanks to my job. I even got invited to be a guest at the Road Home breakfast at the Grand America Hotel this Wednesday, representing Alta View Hospital. So exciting!
K - My husband and I ALWAYS Kiss goodnight, hello, and goodbye. I lived with my grandma Iris growing up and she always made sure we hugged and kissed as much as we could. Always showing that affection to show she loved me. My kids have also taken on that same thing and won't leave with out a kiss. I love it. I am very big on affection and think a hug and a kiss means so much.
L - LUNCHTIME with my friends is something I cherish. You see movies and shows with old friends getting together for lunch all the time. I remember when I was younger how bad I wanted friends like that so I could do that. Now I do! It's so much fun and always makes me feel so good! Our usual spot is the Olive Garden. We have so many fun stories and memories that are shared and it's something that you can't replace.
M - There is nothing more meaningful then being able to be a Mother to my children. Sometimes I feel bad because I think about all the times I said "I will never be a mom or get married!" Now look at me! 2 kids of my own, 2 step kids, a husband, and wanting more kids! I will be the very first to admit that I am NOT the best mom in the world. I make mistakes and fumble along the way. BUT...I do know that I try my hardest every day to make sure my kids know I love them and they are safe. I must be doing something right...my kids are super happy! I really feel blessed to have them in my life. They make everything worth it. I love being their mommy!
Ok, so I made it to "M" for now. That has taken me 3 days! I will do the rest tomorrow...or within the next few days. Again...it's really hard to think of good things about me....but I'm trying! :)